nat raum
“tumblr knew”
old enough to be allowed unfettered
internet access, i was also of the age
to be enamored with sex & i stumbled
on a blog called GirlsLoveSexToo—
& how i did love sex, in theory.
but in theory i was still a girl too.
it’s all complicated. i had no conceit
of my gender yet & i sure didn’t love
sex in practice, mostly with men, but
that’s another conversation. i didn’t
know it, but i could easily love her lips
as they interlocked with mine in soft
& deliberate strokes, & god,
i just think that women.
nat raum (they/them) is a writer, artist, and editor, among many other things. Their first work of meme art was the artist book eventually i will learn to stop saying sorry (2018), and their other pub credits include the full-length collections you stupid slut and random access memory. Find them staring into the void or online at natraum.com.
Contributor’s note: This piece is from a larger collection of poems about moments where, in hindsight, it should have been obvious that I was queer.
